aih...

aih... sedihnya saya...sedih sedih...

today...tonite

Nowadays..life in uni seems...rough??? n as usual busy...hectic...stress...but as d routine goes on n on..i feel some sort of emptiness...n losing of enthusiasm in me..lack of inspiration n motivation to go on somehow...to work..to perform better...i wonder where is my usual passion n optimism...??? o.O

In previous sem... no matter how hard..i will do my best to perform...d enthusiasm is always there...but recently is really fading...im not sure why n how myself...maybe i felt bored...lack of interest..or maybe simply there is juz so much to do...i cant focus in doing my work...n cant get anything done...frustrating!


Two weeks rest really helps alot alot..as i felt more refresh and motivated by the fact that i found who i used to be..what i used to do..all those familiarity..places n friends is really uplifting...

Now back from d great 2 weeks off from everything..its time to face d reality...i am trying to motivate myself now...i guess sometimes, certain things..nobody can help u except urself..what a lonely journey n lonely thought...but this i muz do...right now..

Working and working non stop this year had me really tired n lost..what i wanna do most now is to live a life more meaningful...to go where my passion lies...to seek d enthusiasm i used to have....

I guess is time to slow down a bit n laid back a while...not thinking too much...not thinking too hard..enjoy wat i do..n juz being..Mint.....

i wonder

i wonder how am i going to finish tomoro's presentation by tonite
i wonder how am i going to finish lab 4 by tonite
i wonder how am i going to finish up d never ending workload this sem
i wonder how am i going to finish up my procrastinated assignments by this week
i wonder how am i going to finish revising 4 subject for exam next week
i wonder how am i going to plan my final project with excellence
i wonder how am i going to start my first 3 chapther of thesis
i wonder when will i get enough sleep
i wonder when will i say 'im bored nothing to do'
i wonder when will i finish tidy my room
i wonder when my laziness will go away
i wonder Y am i still FB-ING and BLOGing
i wonder n i wonder n i wonder how am i going to survive this crazy semester
n i wonder y am i enjoying all this...i muz be crazy too....hahhahhahhah!!!!
arg...tonite...i wonder how to finish all that.....hahahahahahahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday

hate this feeling so much...it appears again...y isit always like that...feels so horrible...feels so miserable....what shud i do...how shud i do...maybe i shud take some time to reflect....something is so wrong wit me....hope will feel better after a good nite sleep...it been a miserable day...been tirin days n is juz d beginning...i shud calm down...n learn let go sometimes...being too hard on myself might juz hurts more...deep breath...deep breath...go to sleep.........

Kancil in KL

I wonder if i will ever figure out all those confusing...winding...crazy KL roads n highways...zzzz...i dun even wanna think bout all those money wasted on tolls ...when i took the wrong way n hav to take U turn which is like super far away...so..have to pay the same toll twice...>< Besides..Those roads here are like all d same...zzzzz...n there are so many bridges n exit..zzzzz....i feel like whacking sum1 when i missed my exit...which happens quite often....><><
One of the worse case was today...when im trying to get home in serdang from my aunt house in damansara...first i dunno how on earth could i missed the LDP...totally no idea how i get to kenchana after a horrible jam...luckily i realised i took the worng way before i go any furthur..maybe to ipoh...lol...pay double toll again zzz...U turn back to 1 Utama...took my fav LDP ...yea..evrything was juz nice n fine all d way till i turn in my usual exit ...the sg besi 1...but..i 'clever clever' took d bridge thing n fly to kinrara...swt...im totally lost in the kinrara jungle for like an hour...even my fuel was finishing...after some trial n error..i found my position n manage to reach I0I mall...then me n my blurness took that annoying U turn n yea!! i have to pay double toll again...U turn back n..finally i saw my dear serdang on the signboard...n soooo...i manage to get home in 2++ hour instead of 45 mins.... few more mins i can reach sekinchan d!!! urggg...im really amazed by myself...n my kancil..
of coz there are more stories bout how a kancil lose itself in the concrete jungle...stuck in KL n cant n way out...so long that i have no energy to tell...thus as conclusion my poor poor little kancil survived being bullied my big cars n lorries n its owner that travel everywhere without even knowing the way..( thats y they build signboards laaa)
one thing for sure...i will never forget the experiences i had with my kancil that had become my bestfren on roads...what we went through together had been one of the most significant part of my life...think she deserve a nice good bath n polish...after mt intern of cozzz...^^

wat is it..

been feeling so weird n complicated these days...wanna cry cant cry...wanna laugh oso difficult...wanna think..headache..so much to think...wanna sleep oso brain can stop working...i think is stressness...muy muy stressness...zzzzz...think bout anything oso stress...altho im back home..things juz cant stop bothering me..i got so much to do laaaa...maybe i juz need a day juz sit there n think nth...yea...i shud do tat...think of d bright side...u can do it mint...!!

i realise that nowadays i no longer can decribe or put things that happen in my life in words...LOL...well maybe im not good in language to start with or i dun have great vocab..maybe what we are feeling at d present is more important...i dunno but im sure that life will turn out ok...things will take care of itself..what i muz do is do what im suppose to do..in the right way...n take care of myself n responsibilities...life...there is so much to learn each day...^^