yesterday

hate this feeling so much...it appears again...y isit always like that...feels so horrible...feels so miserable....what shud i do...how shud i do...maybe i shud take some time to reflect....something is so wrong wit me....hope will feel better after a good nite sleep...it been a miserable day...been tirin days n is juz d beginning...i shud calm down...n learn let go sometimes...being too hard on myself might juz hurts more...deep breath...deep breath...go to sleep.........

Kancil in KL

I wonder if i will ever figure out all those confusing...winding...crazy KL roads n highways...zzzz...i dun even wanna think bout all those money wasted on tolls ...when i took the wrong way n hav to take U turn which is like super far away...so..have to pay the same toll twice...>< Besides..Those roads here are like all d same...zzzzz...n there are so many bridges n exit..zzzzz....i feel like whacking sum1 when i missed my exit...which happens quite often....><><
One of the worse case was today...when im trying to get home in serdang from my aunt house in damansara...first i dunno how on earth could i missed the LDP...totally no idea how i get to kenchana after a horrible jam...luckily i realised i took the worng way before i go any furthur..maybe to ipoh...lol...pay double toll again zzz...U turn back to 1 Utama...took my fav LDP ...yea..evrything was juz nice n fine all d way till i turn in my usual exit ...the sg besi 1...but..i 'clever clever' took d bridge thing n fly to kinrara...swt...im totally lost in the kinrara jungle for like an hour...even my fuel was finishing...after some trial n error..i found my position n manage to reach I0I mall...then me n my blurness took that annoying U turn n yea!! i have to pay double toll again...U turn back n..finally i saw my dear serdang on the signboard...n soooo...i manage to get home in 2++ hour instead of 45 mins.... few more mins i can reach sekinchan d!!! urggg...im really amazed by myself...n my kancil..
of coz there are more stories bout how a kancil lose itself in the concrete jungle...stuck in KL n cant n way out...so long that i have no energy to tell...thus as conclusion my poor poor little kancil survived being bullied my big cars n lorries n its owner that travel everywhere without even knowing the way..( thats y they build signboards laaa)
one thing for sure...i will never forget the experiences i had with my kancil that had become my bestfren on roads...what we went through together had been one of the most significant part of my life...think she deserve a nice good bath n polish...after mt intern of cozzz...^^

wat is it..

been feeling so weird n complicated these days...wanna cry cant cry...wanna laugh oso difficult...wanna think..headache..so much to think...wanna sleep oso brain can stop working...i think is stressness...muy muy stressness...zzzzz...think bout anything oso stress...altho im back home..things juz cant stop bothering me..i got so much to do laaaa...maybe i juz need a day juz sit there n think nth...yea...i shud do tat...think of d bright side...u can do it mint...!!

i realise that nowadays i no longer can decribe or put things that happen in my life in words...LOL...well maybe im not good in language to start with or i dun have great vocab..maybe what we are feeling at d present is more important...i dunno but im sure that life will turn out ok...things will take care of itself..what i muz do is do what im suppose to do..in the right way...n take care of myself n responsibilities...life...there is so much to learn each day...^^

what am i...

sometimes i felt that things changed so much that i cant really catch up with them...im like living in a rush on changes...so rush that i dont really have time to think or digest what im doing...its extremely scary when i dun feel like me anymore ...thats when i start feeling unsure and frightened...time...i need time...can you slow down a bit pls.............

frens 2

missing the happy times at school....

frens...

These days..i have been thinking n missing all my frens...Even during CNY hols there is not much time for us to update ourself..worse the ones oversea..
Nowadays...we are all over d globe..all over the place...living different life..walking different path...i always has this weird feeling whenever i browse through facebook..looking at unfamiliar faces in each pictures...looking at other ppl's comments n notification...different friends..different stories..it seems like we are now havin a little separate world other than the ones we once shared for so many years...busy with our work..studies..etc..sometimes it seems tat we missed out lots of happenings in each other lives..yes! is weird but totally normal..norm of life...
we cant be togather forever...we cant see each other all d time...we dun talk to each other as often as we do..but the thoughts that is most important...we know tat the good times...the bad moments..memories of us is always kept deep down in our hearts...
I always think tat i dun have a huge large group of friends..but i have friends tat i had lots of memories with..some i had know them most of my life...tat stay by me when i need them...tat endure and tolerate me (at times)..tat touched my life in all sorts of different way...without them...i will not become who i am today...
I realise how valuable and rare true frens are...I always wanted to apologise for every bad things..wrong words..n action that i done in d past...
I am such a lucky person to be able to meet and have all of u in my life...THANK YOU for making my life a more colourful and meaningful one...