time...

people say time will wash everything away...i doubt that some time ago...
i began to feel that recent years where things began to fade away...i really get it today as i realise i cant recall how he looks like at all...time once move forward... will never stop...time never look back....is time i move on too...goodbye...my dear fren...thank you for everything....be well be happy be healthy....

crazy me...write so many post in a day...wat to do..depress with myself...
im thinking...is my expectation towards myself too high or wat...how come im always not good enough in something...always know a bit of everything nia...aihz...feel kind of useless today...dissapointed with my ability...or isit im lack of confidence in myself...cant even handle such a minor thing...maybe im juz lazy, scared or even juz finding excuses...argg..is driving me nuts...is mint an extreme average person afterall??? aihz...goodnite...

the colour blue...

Having a blue day today..==
first i woke up late...somehow i forgot to set my alarm last night...so i quickly rush to class...then traffic jam pulak!!! gosh..hate it especially when cars lining up in front of the UPM gate...i mean like cant d car move faster..n stop cutting the queue!!!ok fine..next thinking bout what should i do bout my timetable...over credit onot..mgm or report or spanish...so basically i dun really listen to wat d lec mumbling..hate the arranging thing at d beginning of d same...><

which class which class...decision is so hard to make..in the end..i dun wanna think so much nmore..juz take..d future will fall into d place..lol..then late again to spanish class...dunno wat the lec cakap again...tokin in spanish like a train..in d end dunno wat i tok oso in d presentation...==!


then went to have lunch..so many ppl..no place to sit...went another place..change place for like 4 5 times...>< then hang out in d com lab..thinking bout my timetable AGAIN...>< then after doing some silly things went to photostat notes...zzz..waited long...d person kind of mess up a bit..then i realise my tyre is flat...zzz...wat kind of day isit...!!!!

now...writing blog instead of doing assignmentn washing my big pile of clothes...zzzz..dunno wat im doing today...dun care..i wan sleep d..cure my depression-ness... i'll think tomoro...n seriously..my english is getting bad these days...zzzz...

wat to do..tomoro gonna be a extreme busy day!!! got to go fix this n fix tat...TT
Buddha pls help me...amitaba...

cont

5) to be more hardworking....
6) use more brain when doing things
7) less silly
hopefully tis year is going to be a good year with a better me...

2010

it's a new year...new things in life..new aim..new aspiration...n most importantly...new life...
to achieve list 2010...
1) to burn excess fats...(hopefully)
2) less meat more veggies more water...more exercise- healthier lifestyle
3) a more organized time management
4) sleep earlier...get more sleep...less panda

to be updated...kind of sleepy now...lol

illusions...

everything goes back to the beginning
like things never happened before
its like a dream and we will wake up one day
searching and searching for clues and meanings
thinking and thinking day after day
but there seems no answers but more and more questions
drifting and keep on drifting
for years and years
hoping and waiting for something or someone
to hold on to
but is just myself again
thinking ive found the answers
but everything comes back to the start
the beginning
everything is just an illusion
when will this illusion ends
when will i find myself again
see clearly live peacefully
in this road...this journey
full of illusions....

sick days

i guess my unhealthy lifestyle of staying up late and no proper diet is really cathing up with me as i suddenly fall sick last sunday...this time everything juz hit me at a same time...flu..cough...sorethroat...fever...usually is divided into stages...well...the feeling was horrible...!!
well...i guess is true that family is really important...who else are willing to look after you when u need them most...parents...even the sometimes irritating siblings...we will do the same for them too as this is wat family is about..caring and supporting each other...accepting each other weekness...
i learn to appreaciate them more and more...not taking ppl that care for us for granted...l did that in the past and hope that i will not do that again...